Monday, September 28, 2009

Facebook knows my MENTAL DISORDER



(click to see my facebook acct)

WHAT IS YOUR MENTAL DISORDER?

wah. that facebook quiz reads my mind.lol.

heres my result:


YOU ARE DEPRESSED

You have one of the most common problems in the world today. You just know how to be happy. Whether there is a reason or not, you tend to be full of sadness most o...f the time. You tend to be sluggish and laid back because you don’t have the motivation to do anything. Here is a tip for you, CHEER UP. The world is not as bad as you think so just try to appreciate the little things.


going back to my situation ryt now, mukhang unti unti ko na tong natatanggap.
i mean, medyo nakakamove on na ako sa aking mga problema, but i have to admit na the PAIN is still there.
and thats normal,
i have to accept ol those problems, face it, and just learn from them.
like wat BONG said; Time will teach pipol to accept me and the one i love.
and i guess time is starting working on it na, ol i have to do is wait and just live my life the way it is ryt now.
no one knows.
no one cares.
but i really believe that no one also have the right to stop me from enjoying my life.

one of my friend 'marc (S)" (with the S hah, dami kasi akong marc na kkilala.haha) txted me last nyt.
sabi ko ksi sa kanya, tigilan nya na yung pag inom niya,
then he replied:

"cge lang. pbayaan mo na"

then i asked him for 5 valid reasons if bakit siya umiinom.(but actually joke lang sana yun but he answered it eh.haha. seryoso cguro o tlagang lasing na naman last nyt.haha)

he replied:
"1. nag eenjoy ako kasama barkada ko.
2. unwind.
3. boring sa bahay
4. nageenjoy sa life ko habang bata pa ako.
5. sarap uminom"

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tama ba siya?
i think oo.

haha.
wag niyong sabihin na masama ako but, for me kasi, kahit ano pa sabihin nyo, kahit ano pa ang gawin niyo, kung dito kami masaya, wala na kayong magagawa.

oo may mga negative results to, pero di nyo rin ba naiisip na iniintindi rin namin yun at talagang pasaway lang talaga kami para ituloy mga gawaing yun!?
mahal namin sarili namin.
kaya pinipili namin kung saan kami sasaya.

rephrase!

mahal ko sarili ko
kaya pipiliin ko kung saan ako sasaya.!

oo ako to!

masaya pag mag isa,
masaya din pag may kasama.

masarap mahalin,
masarap din saktan..
DEPRESSED?

medyo.

MOVING ON?
yep.! and i really assure you, na sa susunod na post ko dito sa blog ko.
im ok na.
not totally naman siguro but at least
maririnig niyo rin yung OK mula sa taong "DEPRESSED" daw sabi ng Facebook. lol

(TANONG: May napansin ka ba? bakit ang gulo ng post na to?)

Sagot: Intindihin mo na lang kasi, depressed kaya ako! :))

Monday, September 21, 2009

ACCEPTANCE

Its really hard in my part.
doin things that i know its beyond NORMAL.
or let us say, its not right.

but what if doin those things makes me happy.
helps me forget bout 'fake smiles' thingy?
will i just ignore other people's POV?

hindi nila ako masisisi,
that person fills those missing pieces that i have been searchin for,
that person gave me the real definition of "HOW TO LOVE" and "HOW TO BE LOVED TRLY" in return.

im a kind of person na lagi na lang mag-isa.
matagal na akong naghahanap ng taong makapagbibigay ng tunay na pagmamahal at saya sakin...

pero bakit bawal?
LIFE'S RULES?
DISCRIMINATION?




"Though it is forbidden,
my heart pounds for you.
Though I will be condemned,
I can't live without you.
Though it is evil and sinned,
it is nothing but pure for you.
My tears will fall,
while my heart will sing,
all for the one who is forbidden.
Though it is looked down upon,
my heart soars high with you.
Though they bring tears to my eyes,
I protect against them for you.
Though it will be fought,
my heart will not stop loving you.
My tears will fall,
while my heart will sing,
all for the one who is,
forbidden... "

i know, you have an idea bout this and i really need your help.
hindi ko masabi ng diretso but i know, may idea ka na kung ano ang ibg kong sabihin.

RAAAAAAAAWWWWRR :(

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

RANDOM. Bursting Emotions.


KEEPBLEEDING

My Photography!
AGAIN.


eto lang muna sa ngayon, busy kasi sa School.
gonna post some thoughts SOON :((

TRAPPED

REWIND

HERETODAY

AIMHIGH

540


JUST Click the PHOTOS to view the larger size. :)